age 7-9 When I experienced 'White Light' in circle of cedar trees. 13 yrs of age When I was about 13 yrs old, I got tons of packages (20-30) at Christmas –all wrapped with bows. My mother was with her boyfriend, Mr. Pearsal. I would shake a package, and then tell them what was in that package before opening it –much to their surprise. This went on from unknown package to package. I guessed them all. Every one! I remember seeing how they ‘watched me’ as they gave me the next package. It became a game to surprise me. Finally after knowing what was in every package –they gave me the very last package, saying "you will never guess this one". I said after holding it that it was a bible, and then opened it. That bible had my name in gold, on the cover. Somehow, they recognized me as ‘different’. There was a gained respect, somehow.
1948 to 1957 1957 --After near death experience [NDE] from viral pneumonia and 15.5 degree temperature. I awoke feeling greater sensitivity and awareness. Struggled to tell anyone, as I just started watching people's behavior and listened deeply at what they didn't say. I was never happy, unless I was down home in Rock Hall, Maryland or with the horses at Mr J's farm.
Married to get away from home. Stayed for 10 years. He was a good fun loving man, however there were some issues I could not bear, as a very niave young woman.1957 to 1970 Divorced in 1967 from first hubby. Lived the so-called normal life. New beaus, etc etc. Lots of questions about people, the why and how they think etc. I watched, listened, and tried to be happy.
1971 ? One beau for 5 years, then married for two yrs. Second marriage, turned ugly after his 84 yr old dad had to live with us the same day I quit my job in the banking world, and joined hubby's floral business. Apparently all pre-planned behind my back. Tremendous issues developed. Too much was now on me. Stress galore led me to later leave, and move into the hayloft of a small barn to get away from all those I knew, including the drunk hubby I was leaving --for my sanity, and the love for the horses --that still made me happy! 1972-1974 --and beyond! The Trade Name came --Countryside 'Rose at the Barn'. Phone operator laughed, and I knew that was it! My dear friend, Erma Maranto, led me there --to get into the horse business in Harford County Maryland --Hunt Country. The Hess family, Foxie Reid, and daughter Marilyn. I later lost respect for many types of horse business, and backed out of each I tried. Race track. Starting th. yearlings at farms. Buying & selling. Boarded horses, trails for professionals. Lessons turned into Stress reduction so riders would NOT abuse horses.
Started writing what I heard, because I never had anyone I could talk to about all this. See www.mindbodybrainspirit.org1975 My mother died of huge aneurysm, after years of pain and meds, that I knew next to nothing about. She finally showed me many bottles of pills. Was frustrated at doctors, only giving her more pills. No other suggestions [no exray etc.] I saw my first owl when following her coffin to grave-side. I knew she had something to do with that --to break my shaking. I was now so alone. I felt like I had been on a gillitine, and the floor just dropped from under me. That embylocal cord was just now pulled from me. 1976-1979 I continued to helped people! Left me wondering what way I should be headed. Moved to 10 acres by Rock State Park, did lessons, and trail riding. Started to realize the Fresh Start Program was changing lives. Very frustrated at some things that haunted me --for a lifetime. 1980 & 1982 Confusions -& 'Personal Search' to find meaning and truth! Now, the Rose is Free'! I learned what I needed to know, and it took two long years! I needed to find FAITH, and to believe what I heard and see that others do not. I had to find the understanding that showed me that my experiences were and are real. No one else had to know what I had learned in my lifetime,
--at least --not yet!1983-1984 Trail riding --plus find my place, my niche in time. The courage was given by what I heard! So at difficult times of 27 of 29 RAINY weekends, when my funds were depleted without the riders on weekends --I decided to make a huge change. I was told --'WORRY NO MORE'. So, I choose not to! Was it a gamble? 1984-1985 --incomplete! I moved to just over the line into Balto. County Md. I developed and started the 90 hr. 3 wk. 'Horse Fever' Program. Then, defiance from landowner [Iranian cancer surgeon --with beautiful American wife] I did ask that I could do business, next meeting rental contract was changed for his protection. He said after 4 months that I was out of business because I needed a 'special exception hearing [$1,500.00] and he would not rent property again. I somehow managed and won my freedom. Programs excelled without advertising. He wasn't happy about that, especially when I had found a larger facility just over the state line.
I also started learning that 'Boys will be Boys' and girls just want love, and THAT was really hard to find! A trip downhill started --emotionally, yet --I knew I had something to learn about men, and what they stood for, and believe. What a dissapointment, and time of confusion that started. I was really learning!LOCATION SEARCH 1985 to Aug 20, 2000
1985-1994 Moved to 60 acre run-down farm over the Pa line by 4 miles, on Agreement to purchase at $1,000 a month. New farm search'. Tried to help someone! Tragedy --friend-murdered! I knew it before reading the news! I was giving the farm back, giving it back to previous owner. She later said she she had to force me out. That was a lie! Falsified forclosure, that I said was just fine, do it! This way, she would not loose her home! TRUE!
'95 Also ran into a preacher who was not law-biding --in my eyes. He and two others would purchase the 60 acre farm, and all I would have to do is treat woulded owls, I was told. He was ready to make the payment to a mentor, when I thought: Do I pay rent? Does he own me or the horses? What is this really all about? He changed his mind at the last minute. I then believed he was getting properties and monies from the old folks in his congregation, and had to do something to just hold his and othersfinancial holdings. Was this money laundering? I wanted no part of this! Was I a fool? Don't think so. Seemed like fraud to me. All I wanted were answers, and to be clear on all issues. No details? Something was not right. So, on to the next phase of my life.
TIM! A dream! Spiritually seduced by a monster, who later killed him, and left him to rot! I knew internally that Tim was in real trouble, and no one would listen. It made it to 'Unsolved Mysteries', and I was there in Pittsburg, when that man was led out of the courtroom --in handcuffs.1995-1996 Leaving the old farm, a friend said: 'Rosie, I do not know how you will do all you are out to do'. Like a breeze through my mind, I heard "AGAINST ALL ODDS", and I knew where it came from.
I did NOT know what all was ahead, and what that really meant!
25 acre property by state game land opportunity turned bad, when that owner had a heart attack --TWO DAYS BEFORE SIGNING THE RENTAL LEASE. HORRID! Now the next call was to be a win-win situation, but turned into a greedy attempt o take over my business. This was a trip down witches lane. I went there to help these people build a business --to help them find happiness, and actually, I saw the witches brewing a pot-of pure greed. I became very close to an emotional breakdown, working at keeping face, and doing the right thing, however, I saw what extent some people would go to to win at taking over someone else's life and business. I could have lost everything, Reality check, looking back at all I heard and did --to make those people happy. BINGO! Now it was obvious. I DID learn! A very dear friend --Ray Hearne got the right people and trucks --to help get me out of there to the next property with 1/3 of the indoor arena gone, however an opportunity to get a business started closer to a city.1996-1998 ---------------not yet! Escape prior place / 11 acres / betrayal / learned of the business attitude of many non profit organizarions --giving only 10% of what is leftover after 'spending and pocketing' hard earned people's donations! I was heart-broken at this corruption. My plan was now to find the way to create what a NPO should be, but how? This has taken me years of re-structuring our programs! I witnessed how cash cows did not support honesty with integrity, but how they tried so hard to make the new one on the block --live as they predicted --'in their box'...OR, I was told: I would be doing it alone if I refused. I now knew the huge job ahead, and I would not turn back!
See BOOTS!1998 -to: Aug 20, 2000 Hanover, decisions, location search. The last try --I thought, and that 'Barn of Many Colors' --with no water, no electric, and no phone for over six months. Faced total personal collapse. I 'heard' --"It is because you have come this far --that all will be okay now." We were directed, found, and taken in, coddled and encouraged to document programs etc.. Later, accepted as Medical Assistance Provider, [one month] terminated due to lack of needed paperwork. Learned even more about the business of NPO. New possibilities from NY and beyond. It was recommended that we combine our work with a 9 million dollar upcoming facility --I knew was part of that HUGE EMPTY BOX, so I refused to even consider this. Made our program first priority. We had a Psychologist, Behavioral Specialist, Therapeutic Staff Support {TSS] etc. lined up to work with us and the program. No one knew anything about how we worked with the horses or people --so HOW could all this be done. I raised my arms in prayer. "SHOW ME HOW TO DO THIS' I had placed all my horses up as rent --in belief that this was God's plan, and I would be shown the way. I wrote --"I know that God is preparing 'a place for us --where eagles fly".. I would walk away from all this, after putting my Big Horse 'Beau Lyncho' down. No one would get him! This was done horrifically by terrible vet. This near broke me, plus I was now homeless, walked away realizing that what I had created was all --because of Lyncho, and now he is gone. What now? One day at a time! Just listen, follow what I am told, and continue to grow --from what I hear, and see, even in the people I would now come across, that was difficult for even me to believe. 2000 That decision More on what helped me on this path 2000 --from: Aug 20 Lyncho. A friend of many years betrayed me --bigtime! She was a D.I.D. [Multi-personality --to my surprise. I learned about this when working with Mental Health program in '98. Then --I moved to Dallastown, Pa. --after only four months to learn about starting to make websites. Computer work. Agonizing Pa. Journey! Too difficult to even write about! More of beating the odds, yet pushing to document all that I could --to get it on a website. 2001-2003 To my dads to help him and myself --for one year and 3 months ONLY. I found I was very glad he did not raise me! Then, Belair, to friend's place. Stayed 4- 5 months at the woods edge. Slept on air mattress under trees! I healed there. Then directed to presc. drug addict's home as a helper. Three detectives visited. My dad was murdered. They thought I could have done it! I said: "I could have, and that is why I left there. I would have hit him in the head with a frying pan". of course I didn't, and wouldn't have.
It took a year to clean up his house from very serious fight and learning how he was murdered. Then selling his stuff etc, home included. That took another year. I still had a few horse clients that helped financially. When his house was sold, money was split with falf-sister, who had problems with chemical abuse. What I did get was almost divinely timed, because now, I could continue on my path to finish what I had started. Interesting!2004 I moved to a townhouse --for one year. Rebuild the office! Developed the Our Programs Consultant Cirriculium [HHC]. Then got first horse donated --[Redi]. Then moved to Fair Hill Md. so I could ride. Got 90 applicants for HHC. Dismissed 60, left 30 who did not want to visit or study/program! What now? Really need to find the right kind of people to do this work! We would NOT simply hand out Certifications, as requested or desired. This was really helping me to lay out the groundwork for HHC. 2005-2006 --> To Central Pa for mountain pure water! No more flouride etc. I would be able to think more clearly, and continue with my work, wherever that took me. Lost my great cat on the way there, then in three months, My Beau Doggie unknowingly had cancer so bad, I had to relieve him of his pain. Now, I had my four horses. [I got Tonkin back --thank God for that] I unknowingly dove into another fire, and found what 'emotional hostages' were, for I had become one myself. [This was July 1 to Nov 16-2006] Then, when I had to go for a drive --to find my spirit again, I was divinely directed to a fabulous location, with all we could dream of. ~~~~~Divine Intervention! I met the owner one day after he & wife agreed they needed someone with some programs to help get clients to their place, a farm retreat. When I heard that comment from the owner who I met, I stretched out my hand and said: "Well, here I am'. This led to cancelling his duties to hear me, and within 3 hours, he did hear me, and then showed me two places, where I could rent --to get away from what I had been going through since the first of July. He had a place very much like the old 60 acre farm that my clients loved. YES! We had an agreement, He would help Our Programs and our program. How long will this take? What all still had to be done?? I now have the chance to pull all the pieses together --somehow in this remote location, yet what would all this mean??? I was now alone --with 'Divine Guidance' I knew that! No other way, could all this happen --for the Good of all. 11-16,2007 GO TO: www.horseholiday.org for more info. at this location! Prep. grounds, stalls etc. horse trailer sale bypassed. 40 hr. job. to help make this work in this remote area. Real culture shock! 2008 --few clients pro bono. Dismantle years of papers etc from moving so many times. Job.
Learned more about business corruption and food, so I was then fired! This was the best thing that happened, and the unemployment checks would be so helpful to just keep moving forward with all the work I needed to do for Our Programs, etc.
Looked up NDE, and came to another revelation. It is world-wide! What an audience. Created new website: www.mindbodybrainspirit.org Then Australian client 3 times visited here. '08 & '09.Met other NDE from NDESpace.org. My life is making so much more sense.
2009 --few clients few pay. NDE symposium / break up sites. Work on 3rd website. More pro-bono work. File first grant application with help from Australian. [Leanne] --Got a yes. $4,500.00 in all. She helped us get another grant of $4,500 to start making property more usable.
I had to learn so much computer stuff. Bad Service provider. People could not see my web pages due to 404 errors. I had to LEARN why and correct this. Get another web program --too technical. Then a better one. Fix all errors, and start having people actually see my pages --YIPPEE! So much to learn and to do. Will this ever stop? Why am I doing all this?2010 --new clients --word of mouth STQH is Service for HH --Parent.
Found I had to record 'The Rose is Free' because Mr. J.s family did not know what had happened to him. He too was murdered --as far as I could see it. That was an emotional thing for me to do. Then, I met his family. This was healing, I believe for Mr. J. who wanted all this known.
_________________________________________________________
First talk at MS group! 4th website -RATB. to tell our story.
So here it is!2011 --Jan. Feb.
It has all really come together!
Now I wait for calls.Gather the story to be told on this site--as asked for.
Then, it's time we get our message and program out there! Our clients from '97 to 2000 stated that 'it would not be the same --for them, if we worked with another horse program --to keep the larger facility'. Everyone stated that they needed the privacy that we gave them, so they could do their best healing! THAT --is what we have chosen, and with much less overhead, so we are here for you now --in Central Pa., to best serve your needs..
Our Path & niche --has been shown to us!
No one has to punch a clock! AND we work Our 5-Way-Win!Early 2011 Let's not forget the Rain downpours for what seemed like three months, Then the Tsunami, the hurricanes, earthquakes, and then the fall of the economy! WOW! What a RIDE we have all had to go through the first half of 2011. We also found that HH lost the tax exempt status because we did not send in 990 forms for 3 yrs. I was told we did not have to do that because we did not make over $25K with HH Org. SO grunt/grind to see how to fix that. Did what was necessary to IRS to expedite 501-C3 status. Mid May -July 2011 Pointed us into a larger form of business, for a big break! Suddenly we were THROWN into a whirlwind. I also 'heard' --'God WILL Push back'
--and I do not know what that means! then I knew! and we were under threat! Concerns grew rapidly! USDA came and we are eligible for Guaranteed loan, but first more work to be done. Copy-write all papers & curriculium, write business plan, create -LLC [2], financials, plus found the PERFECT facility, NEW decisions,hopes, wants and desires. We found a Grant Writer --finally! July! Signed him --in contract!August 17, 2011 All this has pointed us in a very positive and NEW direction.
NOW --we just have to make it happen, and When God places His Hand on Our Programs Org. --the WORLD will also know!' Let's see what happens next! PS --Are we at the end, or is this the great new Beginning? HOW? We will see --won't we? The current concern was reversed, and the threat is gone --for now! Aug. 30, 2011.Sept. 2011 Now, I know that the brown stuff isn't finished yet! Got reply from IRS. Rejected expedite for 501-C3 re-instatement, even though we depend on grant that is due from October 1. NOW WHAT? We DESPERATELY NEED THIS! WHO would believe all this --without documenting it? I remember also hearing "AGAINST ALL ODDS'. What else could possibly go wrong? So I continue my Walk in Faith! I ALSO FOUND WHY WE DID NOT RECEIVE THE NOTICE THAT WE NEEDED TO DO 990 YRLY! [FROM '2006] October 2011 What will this month bring? Are we searching for another rental propert with more pasture for horses? Dec 20, 2011 --as I felt it!
