It
always fascinates me –my reactions to what I see in Human Behavior.
From early youth I remember just watching people –always
asking WHY they were doing as they did –rather than criticizing.
In high school when some tried to bully me into a fight, I
simply calmed myself and watches them, as they crumbled at my
refusal to participate.
It amazed me how they cringed and walked away in defeat.
I ‘watched’ people and still do, as always –in amazement.
WHY? I think it
has a lot to do with that veil over my eyes at birth, and the
miracle in the cedar trees.
All
I have observed lists the many pieces to a puzzle, that puzzle of
life –here on earth. I
wanted to be left alone --in the clouds where I felt I belonged,
above all this unnecessary turmoil.
With aging, I still look back at my own behavior, and try to
understand the where and how of all I have had to go through.
Was it stamina?
Was it stupidity? Or
was it the continual search for just getting along –while here in
this element. Life does
come full circle, and the wondering and questioning seems to
dwindle, as a new phase takes over.
Shall we finally call that maturity?
Some reach that much sooner than I have.
Or, at least THEY THINK SO, as their choices are simplified,
perhaps in fear of really living this experience without the fear of
failure, or criticism from others.
The
Rose does unfold –to the ultimate expressions of existence, those
‘right now’ moments, we learn to cherish and to depend on as
lessons, some good, and some not so.
This is and has been an extraordinary life I have lived, and it is
still entertaining to me, as I listen to or watch what others are
doing, as I try to help them simplify their tasks in life.
Watching their choices, and reflecting on my own is mind-boggling, a
movie with no ending –it seems.
When the day or moment comes that the physical –is released,
and the ethereal takes over, I feel like I will be that rainbow,
with that turned-over smile of approval. This has been and will
always be a great experience.
We must live our lives, and also let others live theirs, as
‘their script’ –is only part of the play!
--The Rewards are Gratifying!
'Rose at the Barn'
April 27, 2011
