My First Miracle

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Over 40 years with my horses, as a family, they taught me. They would gather around me -not because they were invited, but because they loved.  Their integrity was superb, more-so than many humans.  They respect children [foals] and the elderly, and would give up their food so a mare and herfoal ate first.  I live by what THEY taught me.

Human families are too often wrought with emotion and expectation.  My own parents taught me nothing!  Period!  I believe my mom must have tried to abort me with a coat hanger or something.  The 'other one' was eliminated.  They did not know we were twins!  So the remaining unwanted child [me] was only displayed when the family visited.  This is the only explanation I can come up with for my treatment by both parents.  It was as if my mother was ridden with confusion and guilt, and my father was always angry at the other mouth to feed.  That's it!  That's all there was, except at holidays when the gifts were there, mostly to make an impression on their family.  [Yes, I could be wrong!]

Interesting, how trying to figure all this --has been my strength, because I had to learn things myself.  If I wasn't a nature girl, and if I didn't have such a spiritual experience at age 7 yrs. that I didn't understand at that time, I would have been lost.  I would really have been alone without that experience.  I always knew that I was a 'Child of God'.  Observing my human family life was never as good as what I was given, by a miracle in a circle of cedar trees at 7-9 yrs.   I had been filled with the Holy Spirit of God's Love in those trees, from the inside out, by that 'white light' --whiter than snow. With my head down, eyelids closed I saw brighter and whiter than snow through my eyelids.  I was covered by something that seemed to gently pour over me that was so awesome and calming.  Nothing would ever replace that experience.  Others would never understand, and that left me in loneliness with humans.  Only the horses knew.  They could see it and feel it, when others were blind to God's love in me. It was the horses and me --that just knew.  They saw it, and I saw that in them.

I went through a long time of testing, because of my confusions, and anger at people and family, and still had no one to talk to.  I just had the comfort of the horses and other animals. that could absorb what I had in me.

This is how I help people now, to find that peace and contentment from learning about this part of the natural horse, because they are real, not tangled up in he said --she said.  We get to the core of just being in the now.

Working together makes for higher communication abilities that get refined and honed to another level.

Training horses -is making them do what is NOT natural for them.  A natural horseman works with the horse in a pure sharing experience --two beings finding 'that core center' for doing, or living, from the heart and soul of both beings, horse and human. 

Money or gain has nothing to do with our work.  It comes from the highest form of caring and sharing, and is often missed in human relationships, especially in business.  People just do not understand me or how I do things with the horses, and that has been just fine for me.  I do not really care if they try to understand or not.  They just miss out on all that inner beauty, that just happens between them and me. 

See more of my story in www.mindbodybrainspirit.org and in my bio-founder pages.

Rose M. Foreman
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